i feel restless.
fire boiling.
i have absolutely no money. my four credit cards are each about two months overdue. i need $243 by the 10th to continue living here. ranchoweb runs out on the 8th.
what else..?
i dunno, there's more.
no cigarettes. i've never bummed so many in my life. i feel awful about that. when i get money, i plan on buying a whole pack for a particular friend and giving it to him. it's the least i could do.
i scramble for something to eat. last night, we bought a small bag of rice with the pennies we were able to gather. the night before, i started snacking on condoments. mmm.. tartar sauce...
but.. even with all this, i've been keeping a remarkably good attitude. calm, not too stressed out. and i laugh so easily. more easily than i've been able to for a long time. because i'm still on my way to personal freedom. and that does wonders for your soul.
or maybe i'm just getting delirious from the lack of nourishment, and that's why i laugh so easily.
or maybe.. it's one of those situations where.. it's just so bad.. laughing is all you can do..
either way, there is much to laugh about.
We've been had, I know it's over
Somehow it got easy to laugh out loud..
LJ