the question:
do i start my day with a cup of blueberry coffee, or a couple shots of 151?
seems to be rejection weekend for dani.
anyone else want to shut me out?
c'mon, it's fun.. all the cool kids are doing it.
in worlds where i used to be the center, now there is no room.
but i guess that's how love goes.
i always wanted to be friend first. but.. maybe i've gone about it wrong.
guys are dicks when they're not interested in getting in your pants, not interested in making you smile, not interested in who you are.
or something..
i feel like a disease. i should be quarrantined.
spending four days with a guy who plainly does not want you there will do a number on your self esteem.
it's okay.. i can build myself back up. i'm just going to indulge in feeling sorry for myself [alone on my birthday] while i'm down here. 'don't visit here too often anymore, so.. i'd like to stay and enjoy for a bit.
cry a little enjoy the pain.
aside from personal pain, though, there is the outside world to think of. i wonder how the rest of florida is doing after hurricane frances. i was talking to a friend who called late last night [2:30am], telling me about the situation in tampa. he had no power. he kept seeing flashes outside of transformers being blown. he told me about how his father's big dodge ram [extended cab, etc.] was blown over into the lane next to him while parked in the road earlier in the day. and then.. while on the phone.. he heard a tree crack. and fall. and glass shatter. was it his car..? no, someone's truck in the parking lot. and then a fire..
*sigh*
well i knew tampa wasn't a good place to retreat from frances. i could just tell. so it was a good thing i didn't even consider it.. and that i was safe here.
you'll be given love
you'll be taken care of..
[plaid mix]
LJ