i inhale deeply
<<November 24, 2004 - 12:46 pm>>

Smoking

To dream that you are smoking, indicates that you are trying to shield yourself and others against your emotions. You have trouble letting others in.

even though i smoke, i don't normally dream of smoking, but last night i did. i was in college, a different one, hanging out with my girls. it felt more like high school, or even middle school, though, because there was a feel of boys against girls. girls hanging out with the girls, boys hanging out with the boys, and college isn't like that. i was with jen and an old best friend from elementary school, blair lemming. i haven't thought about her in forever, so that was odd. blair wanted to know why i hadn't called to meet up with her. she said she was at her grandmother's and i said i was, too. that's just.. the grandmother factor thrown in, i guess. i haven't dreamt of my grandfather, but i dream of my grandmother. i love her dearly.

uhm.. the rest of the dream is pretty hazy. but i was smoking with jen. we were shopping around some stores on the street, downtown-like. we had to wait until we finished our cigarette before going inside..

*shrug*

oh. and then i woke up for no reason before my parents' alarm [visiting for t-giving] and.. i had tears running down my face. but i didn't know why. i didn't feel particularly sad. but down my face they ran..

LJ

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