an empty book
<<November 30, 2004 - Tuesday, 3:22 pm>>

jude was in my dream last night. though, he was sleeping most of the time. i was one of his roommates in a three-bedroom house. i don't know who the third roommate guy was.

i had some friends coming over to the house. i keep wanting to think it was eman and val [my brother and his girl], but i'm not so sure. they were getting a little loud, so i told them to keep it down a little since jude was sleeping in his room with the door open.

i had a book that i really wanted to show jude. a hardcover book, almost sandman-esque [he really loves that series and borrowed all the sandman books i have so far], with beautiful illustrations in it that i was sure that he was really going to love. so, when i was ready to show him, i went to my room and opened it to flip through it another time. but when i opened the book, all the pages were missing. they just disappeared. i found it very odd and was a little creeped out.

and so i went into jude's room and i told him about what happened, how i wanted to show him this book, but the pages were missing when i opened it. i was sure he'd have something to say about it. but when i waited for his response, i saw he was still sleeping.

other weird stuff happened to me in my room, supernatural things. it's kinda blurry, but one of the things i kind of remember is there being a lot of clothes in there.. racks and racks.. and people walking in and out.

i'm sure there is something metaphorical about that book, but i'm not sure what to make of it just yet.. maybe something to do with how i'm having trouble expressing myself and communicating with myself and others right now..

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Disappear

To dream that people or objects are disappearing right before your eyes, signifies your anxiety and insecurities over the notion that loved ones might disappear out of your life. You may feel that you cannot depend on someone and feel that you are alone and inadequate. You need to work on your self-image and self-esteem.

Sleeping

To see others sleeping, is often a reflection of yourself and your own unconscious mind. It is indicative of how you may not be alert or informed about a particular situation.

Sleeping may also be synonymous with death in that it beckons renewal and new beginnings.

LJ

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