It is a fucking gorgeous day outside today.
There's this unusually cool and refreshing breeze. And there must be drugs in the air because something is making me feel wonderful today..
Uncommonly wonderful.
I sat by the bay just a few moments ago. [I live on a campus right on the water, to refresh some memories.] And it was the first time since I got back that I did that. And all those good old feelings started to come back. The feelings that I repressed for so long so that I wouldn't have to feel the bad ones..
I thought about how I would sit by that water, feeling so in love with Dan. And I thought about the blow that I had never been able to fully stand back up from again. And I was feeling how things were starting to come full circle..
Someone else, someone else..
So wonderful..
So unexpected.
The last thing I wanted, really, but it's here. And I can't give it up because it makes me happy. It makes me laugh again for the first time in a year. It makes me wake up in the morning with a big goofy smile on my face.
I feel the chains of the past unhinging and breaking loose.
I will not be tied down any longer.
Danielle can't live that way.
She must be free.
I'm getting stronger..
Just wait and see.
The Butterfly, she awakes.
Two men after my heart.
Two others after something else.
It's a wonderfully, complicated, beautiful life.
I appreciate them all.
But only one will see me blossom again.
Look I'm standing naked before you
Don't you want more than my sex
I can scream as loud as your last one
But I can't claim innocence
oh.
god.
could it be the weather?
oh.
god.
why am I here?
if
love
isn't forever
and it's NOT THE WEATHER
Hand my my leather..
I almost ran over an angel
He had a nice big fat cigar
"IN A SENSE" he said
"You're alone here
so if you jump you best jump far"...
LJ