my deviled eggs for the staff halloween party were a success. i was a little apprehensive because there are a lot of weird people in the world who don't like eggs. i made two kinds: regular and curried eggs. the curried egg recipe is from a cookbook i acquired while i sat with my baby looking through all his grandmother's cookbooks. the good egg, it's called. i love eggs with a passion. apparently, the curried eggs are what people really liked, too. i wasn't too sure about how people react to curry, either, which is why i also made the regular ones.
so, yeah.. as i sat there eating, i would hear people say to each other "did you have a deviled egg?" "try one of the eggs" "the curried eggs are really good" "who made these?"
i made my contribution to make the party special. and it's the first time i've done something like this. i've never brought food specially made by me to a party before.
*shrug*
would you guess that i could be the homemaker type? i certainly never thought so.
i took the attention in stride. in fact, i barely noticed. because i was distracted. i was absolutely feining[sp?] for a cigarette. before the party, jude was walking towards me when i ask, "you have any cigarettes?" and he said, "i was just going to ask you the same thing."
"crap," i said.
he saw me walk outside to find someone to bum a cig off of, said to get one for him too. but i couldn't find anyone smoking outside.
i dunno, it was funny.
i had some pie at the party. pumpkin and pecan. i was thinking yesterday about how i really wanted some pie. mostly to quench some kind of nostalgic desire, as a comforting food. pie is eaten with family. pie is made by special people. the pie today made me happy.
and then i found myself running off with such a wayward energy. i don't know where it came from. but it was fun. talking to people was fun. as i walked, i felt like i was fully conquering the earth with every step. i was chipper. coworkers were making me laugh.
i still wanted a cigarette. i asked asif if he had 4 bucks i could borrow. he said he had a five. he gave it to me. as i was grabbing my purse to run out, he said, "now don't go buying any cigarettes with that.. i don't want to contribute to that.."
i cracked up. he had to know that's what i was going out for. but maybe he didn't.. heh.. but he already gave me the five. and i decided, on the way back, that if he asked, i'd tell him i needed the money for tampons.
this energy, i ran halfway to my car. that must've been a sight. the SG always said i looked funny when i ran. i felt like i could fly and the world was mine. but i don't know why or where it came from. just this.. wild unbridled energy. out of nowhere. i wished i had people to spend my energy with. to distribute and make merry.
or something.
zukina was talking with mee and said she didn't get to try one of my eggs. she said john got the last one. i told her i can always make more. and her face lit up with such a goofy child-like grin. really cute. enough for mee to laugh and mimic it. and she mentioned something about her birthday coming up. and mee said, "i'll be here too" when i make more. he was the one originally excited when he found out i was going to be making the eggs.
look at me, writing about mundane things. this really can't be interesting to anyone else. but at least, should i ever be wondering, 'what was october 28, 2004 like..?' i will know.
'bought my first pair of jeans in a very long time today. size 9. i match my shoe size now. i actually probably could have fit into a 7, though snugly, if they had it. and i really could have used a 'short' length, instead of the 'medium' length. but this was the only pair of jeans in junior fit. i don't like misses. and i really liked the color. ah well. i desperately wanted a pair of jeans that actually fit me, instead of falling off my hips.
LJ