hmm...
i'm back to feeling the void of d..
'feels nice 'n empty..
:/
analyze analyze analyze ask why self pity complain empty sad aching
it's so hard, y'know..? you're with someone for 3 years.. you are absolutely fucking positive he is THE ONE.. you're so used to having someone loving you.. thinking of you.. holding you.. kissing you.. and then one day it's all gone..
it's so hard to go back to the time consuming task of building another relationship..
i just want someone to hold me..
blanket me..
protect me..
smother me..
heh.
i remember our last goodbye.. the night before i was leaving for miami.. it was so hard to separate.. we cried.. we held on to each other.. when he was finally able to get in his car and drive off.. he only got as far as the stop sign.. i live right on the corner. i think i heard some kind of cry from him.. i was at my front door.. he got out of his car.. we hurried to one another.. clasped one another for the last time.. it was like being in a movie..
who knew that night would be the last time i'd ever get to kiss him..?
we thought everything was going to work out alright..
'can't live in the past, i have been told.. how can i not when i still think that this shouldn't have happened..? i feel like i'm stuck in some kind of alternate universe where everything's all fucked up.. y'know.. like that show, sliders.. i just need to find the right coordinates to get me back home..
LJ