to be in my true state
no longer feeding off a host
I am the dying parasite
I have been weakened to the floor
it is a constant battle with myself
my own worst enemy
I am the ugly monster
I snatch the first victim that comes my way
I feed off their life force
I take their energy
I'll take their life
I'll bring them down with me
It is all disguised in a web of
LOVE.
I need their love to live.
It is not a healthy, giving love
It is not free
It is confining, stifling, smothering
I must have all of you
all of you
my need grows ever deeper
I will not settle until your every waking thought and desire is of me
You will become my other half
Your soul will fuse into my own
But, alas, you break away
I feel the ultimate pain of my soul being ripped in half
It grows ever darker inside
You are no longer here
I lay bleeding and rotting like a gutted animal
weak, helpless, now a victim to my own self
I do not have the energy to feed my desperation
It is sharp and cruel
It tugs at what little life I have left
It hides me safely in a shell as it continues to feed
mercilessly
slowly killing me
until I find my next victim
...
I do not want to prey on you
So I must let you go
Keep you free
Beware of the ugly monster
who hunts in the name of love
She lies withering in torment
Within the confines of her hell
You do not have to become her victim
Save yourself
And break away
LJ