finding solace
<<January 12, 2003 - Sunday, 11:47 pm>>

Change hurts. But it's also what defines life and living. And without it, we wouldn't be so aware of this thing we call time.

Just because something is good now, doesn't mean it can't get better. You would view change as a threat, but.. you really don't know what's to lie ahead.

You think you had everything you wanted once, but.. how do you know you won't find even more one day? Even better. In another way. A way you've never dreamed about.

You don't know.

And you won't know until you open yourself up for it.

Life is constantly kicking us in the asses and making us feel stupid that way.

We are stubborn. We think we have the answer. We think we know what makes us happy. And we don't want it to ever change.

So.. we can go with the change, or we can persist in our stubbornness and dwell on what we had. Whether or not it even exists anymore, we don't care. We just know what we had. It was ours, dammit.

But anything outside yourself is never yours.

Never. Ever.

So the best we can do is take comfort in ourselves. It's the only thing that you have control over. You decided whether or not to let yourself down. No one else has that kind of control.

As much as anyone would hate to admit this.

And the best you can do when change comes along like a hurricane, is to just shrug your shoulders and let yourself be captured by the wind.

And see where it takes you.

Or.. you can resist change and get stuck in a fog. Having difficulty seeing what's in front of you. Being trapped in fear and insecurity.

The choice is yours.

I seek to embrace the unknown.

It's sappy, but this song helps to inspire me. I was reminded of it on the drive home tonite.

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I know I was born, and I know that I'll die
The in-between is mine
I am mine


LJ

step back - push forward

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